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Some random thoughts

2011-03-24T16:25:00.001+08:00

Finally taking a break again from the hectic work of mine today. A day free of admissions, discharges, sending pts to and from surgeries and receiving endless of surgical icu transfers. :D

Got to work in the same shift with my preceptee more often recently. Honestly speaking, I do not know the traits to being a good preceptor because I do not have such experience before. Being a considered "gan cheong" nurse, I tried not to be too harsh or stress her out too much. However, sometimes there's just certain things that you thought it should be clearly understood without explanation while the other receiving end thinks otherwise. I would prefer to spend more time explaining the logic behind our actions so that she does not have to force herself to memorise the endless of steps that each nursing skill comprise but to be able to perform the skills through understanding. Sadly to say, we do not always have the time to explain in the ward. Or maybe I'm just not cut out to be a preceptor. :(

The HO in my ward brought up an interesting topic for discussion with me the other day which I thought it would worth some time to think about it. He felt that nurses are doing mundane stuffs everyday which leaves most of the decision making and patient management to the doctors. Hence he was curious if we as nurses will eventually find ourselves losing our critical thinking ability. The HO was definitely not trying to be offensive which he made it clear in the first place but was just curious about this which he thought would like to hear my opinion. The examples he quoted such as nurses calling him in the middle of the night during his call to inform things which are indeed non-urgent or things which we as nurses can do it too makes me more or less can't help but agree with him at times. I felt that the topic he has brought up is a controversial issue. Being a nurse, I do agree with him to some extend. However, sometimes we are left with no choice when there are policies and protocols which we are obliged to obey. It's true that critical thinking is important be it whether you are a doctor or a nurse. That is why nursing schools have introduced problem-based learning into the curriculum. I am sure most of us as nurses would not want to waste what we have learnt from our professors and try to apply our knowledge in our daily work. I guess SOMETIMES its not easy when we have to apply critical thinking and at the the same time confine ourselves within the boundaries set by the policies and protcols. Or maybe I'm wrong?

Thoughts aside, off to enjoy my rest day now! :D

2011-02-27T11:12:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I realised I don't really understand myself or know what I really want. Things that I thought I could forget and not get bothered by it actually do bothers me a lot. Perhaps I have over estimated myself. It's so tiring. Really.

"Yet sometimes, despite what we may want, the door just has too many locks.”

- Gossip Girl

Thai Wave

2011-02-13T14:12:00.005+08:00

Someone suggested this movie to me which I would say its a must watch! I rated it 4.8 out of 5 stars. :D Loved the ways the girl tried to win the heart of the guy in the movie. Was so touched when the girl confessed to the guy and I cried when the guy was flipping through the album containing all the memories of the girl. I like the mega transformation of the girl's appearence as she grows older. Haha :) Last but not least, thai girls are pretty and the guy in the movie is so handsome! :D I love Thai shows!

Was so addicted to this OST after watching the movie. :D

Anw updates! Came back from Chiang Mai (Northern Thailand) last week during cny. Chiang Mai is one of the most interesting places I've ever visited. There aren't many shopping malls so it's pretty apparent that this trip of mine isn't about buying clothes, shoes, bags etc. During the short 4 days in Chiang Mai, I've got to ride on oxen from a part of the village to another before taking the elephant ride back to the starting point. After which we took a raft ride through the long river which I was told that it extends all the way to Bangkok.

Visited the long neck tribe during one of the days. The women there are really pretty! Was impressed with the way they live their lives meaningfully even with the little things available in the village. The rings that they wore on their neck was much heavier than I thought. Can't imagine having to wear in on my neck on a daily basis which makes me admired the long neck ladies even more. :) Visited some other places too which sums up to an eye opening experience for me. :) One last thing that I must say I will never forget from this trip is Thailand's Tom Yum Soup! :D

2011-02-02T14:15:00.002+08:00

On a sidenote, happy CNY to all! :) Gonna drag myself to pack my luggage SOON. I swear. -.-

2011-01-28T21:27:00.008+08:00

Nice song :)

Bought 3 books from kinokuniya today. :) I love the novels written by Jodi Picoult and I want to finish reading all of them. :) Her novels have made me so engrossed that I can't stop reading once I've started.

Saw this somewhere and I thought the description of love has been put into words so well:
Love is a psychosis. It can make you feel, think and behave quite strangely, but in a good way. There are sensations in your head and heart that can't be explained in logical terms. It's the most fundamental of emotions, yet the hardest to describe in words. But when it happens to you, you'll know it." - Dr Adrian Wang, Consultant Psychiatrist.

One of my aunt came into my mind today as I was drinking my morning or rather afternoon coffee since I woke up late. I have a pair of twin aunts whom I used to be their "niece agony" which means spending hours over the phone, listening to them, sharing their worries and unhappiness, giving them advises and of course consoling them which I'm still doing it now. By being someone who always listens to the agonies of another person, does it makes me look like I'm someone who is worry/problem-free which I always seems to be one among the family. The brother's health wasn't too good since young so mum used to spend more time on taking care of him. The youngest aunt whom I'm closet with used to tell me that I'm the one that she worry the least compared to other cousins of mine. Sometimes I wonder, is this good or bad? Perhaps I've just chose not to show how I feel or my problems to them but this doesn't makes me someone who needs less concern than any other people around me. Nevertheless, I guess being contented with what you have is the key to happiness in life. :)

Back to my book now! :)

2011-01-28T02:18:00.008+08:00

It's a strange feeling when everyone around me seems to be leaving. Just knew that a friend of mine who started nursing slighly earlier than me has resigned. Others are having the plans to leave too. :(

I miss the schooling days actually. Those days where my friends and I had so much fun and laughter, skipping lectures and tutorials together. Those days where we went from faculty to faculty to try out the various nice foods ard the campus. The days when we sneaked food into the old medical library hoping tat we won't get caught by some responsible librarians and spending more time in the library toilet than mugging. I wonder why do I feel so old suddenly?

Managed to finish my 4 nights without much "events" except the incident where I fell off my high chair while I was writing my reports. Thanks to the sudden scream by my elderly patient who claimed that she saw 2 figures, a woman in red and a man in black standing beside me while I was writing my reports. -.-" After which, my patient's BP and saturation dropped. :x Nevertheless, I'm glad I've pulled through it. :) It's time to have a good rest now.

p.s. 5 more days to go :D

2011-01-18T18:29:00.004+08:00

When everything suddenly becomes so clear and you finally understood the things that u don't previously, you will enjoy the feeling of refreshing tranquility that comes along with it. It's just a matter of time.

15 more days and I'll be flying out of sg. :) Will take this time to think of my directions and sort out my thoughts. Meanwhile, it's back to my book.

p.s. wanna share a nice song :)

Being myself

2011-01-11T00:46:00.002+08:00

Can I just be myself and not live up to anyone's expectations? Can I choose the way I want to live my life and not bother about how other's may think? I may sound childish and maybe to some others selfish by feeling this way but I seriously want to get a life of my own. I'm old enough to decide for myself and be responsible for my decisions. For once, can I shake off the role of a daughter, a nurse or which ever role others see me playing as for the moment to do whatever things I like and be myself? I need some solitude. Seriously.

Paradox of a human mind

2011-01-04T22:22:00.000+08:00

It feels like a part of your body where blood supply is no longer present, where it is apparent that its time to be amputated but you just want to hold on to it and not let it go. Because it has already became a part of you. And so you held on to it tightly though all it brings is misery. A paradox that you cannot understand nor explain. Before you can finally make a decision, everything remains unchanged.

Music blows the words out of mind, no words, no thoughts

2011-01-04T02:24:00.005+08:00

Pachelbel Canon in D major - Violin (eXquisite version) :)

Pachelbel's Canon in D - piano version :)

Playing violin late into the night gives me a tranquil feeling which I always enjoyed. My violin has accompanied me for a decade and brought me through times of joys and tears. I used to lock myself in the room and play the violin whenever I'm sad because it never fails to cheer me up after that.

Sometimes I wonder, what would it be like if I have taken up music since young and (if I'm lucky enough) to have the chance to attend the juilliard school. How awesome can it be. Maybe my life would be totally different from now and perhaps happier? I don't know. I can relax and be myself when I'm playing the violin or piano with nothing else in my mind. I love music and I love the feeling that it gives me.

p.s. Happy 2011 to all! :)

Reflections

2010-12-28T13:16:00.003+08:00

A really nice song that I wanna share :)

It's been one and a half years since I have stepped into the nursing profession. I could still remember the feelings then when I decided to choose nursing as my first choice during the application process. I was filled with passion then, with thoughts of hoping to help the sick. With this mentality, I started my life as a student nurse and later on, a registered nurse.

Nursing has opened my eyes to many different perspectives towards people, situations and relationships. It has allowed me to touch the lives of my patients and to feel for some of them. I'm glad and really appreciated the different people that I met along the way. They brought me laughters and tears. To the people whom I really cherished, thank you for the wonderful memories that you have created in my life.

However, I would not deny the fact that nursing is not a bed of roses. I fell, I cried, I hurt myself along the way and I learnt from everyday's experiences. I'm tired from the never ending workload, the rush, the stress and the long hours. Sometimes I wonder why have I chose to put myself in this position, dragging my tired feet home after every shift, tired to go out even on rest days. Thats when thoughts of giving up starts crawling into my mind. I'm afraid that I'll lose the feeling that I used to have when I first chose nursing. Everything would become meaningless then.

I don't want to become a grumpy person that I find myself eventually becoming. The MO in my ward always said this to me whenever he sees me almost everyday: "Something is wrong man. If you smile, its bu zheng chang (aka abnormal), if u don't smile then its zheng chang (aka normal) so wads wrong again today haha". Sigh. I wonder is this really the kind of person I want to become at the end of the day. Maybe I need some time to think about myself and my future.

The year is coming to a closure in 3 days time. I did not have too many regrets compared to yesteryear. As I have mentioned, I am happy to have met some people this year who has made a difference in my life which I will never forget. :) I would not think of new year resolutions this time cus it doesn't seems to hold true anyway. Maybe I'm just too negative haha. I'll rather let nature takes it course and see what happens in the coming year.

2010-12-25T01:07:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas to all! May everyone have a blessed year ahead :)

2010-12-17T22:14:00.000+08:00

I felt like I have just woke up from a long long sleep. A sleep that I never wanna wake up from...

I never want to wake up to reality. In my dreams, I dare, I do things that I want to. To know for sure. To be certain. And of course, everything goes happily ever after.

On a sidenote: I wish for a white christmas this year. sigh.

A nice song that touches my heart :)

2010-12-14T10:38:00.003+08:00

Life is complicated, it starts before we’re ready, it continues while we’re still trying to figure out the point of it and ends before we’ve worked out what to do.- Adrian Tan
Was reading reader's digest when I came across this. How true indeed.

Watched Hello Stranger last week and I would say that it was hilarious! :D I loved the storyline :) I wouldn't mind watching it again haha

I wanna watch sunrise...oh how random I am haha. :D

2010-12-04T17:09:00.001+08:00

Today is my long awaited rest day and I chose to stay at home. It's been quite some time since I spent time alone playing violin, listening to my favourite songs and reading the entire day. I love this solitude and I love my violin which never fails to brighten up my day.

The frequent rains makes me melancholic but also inward looking. Sitting alone, being alone is quite refreshing every once in a while. Maybe I'm tired of everything else happening around me.

Rainbow after the rain

2010-12-02T10:28:00.000+08:00

Feeling much better now. Thanks to those who cared and tried to cheered me up :) There's always a rainbow after the rain. At least I beileve in this.

2010-11-27T23:59:00.000+08:00

Leave me alone. Just leave me alone. Stop asking me questions or care about me. I just want to be alone. I need time. Time to think about my life and my directions. Maybe I need to understand myself better. In reality, I’m just a ball of confusion, of uncertainty, of questions, of cowardice.

It's never enough

2010-11-21T23:46:00.000+08:00

Its 21/11/2010 and I'm sad because today is the last day of my annual leave. :( I have not eat, sleep, pee, play, shop and day dream enough! :( Or maybe I'm just too greedy...

Glass shoes

2010-11-19T14:14:00.004+08:00

Was watching the movie "Marry a rich man" online yesterday and was captivated by the beauty of the pair of glass shoes that appeared in the scenes. So beautiful, so fairytale-like. :) 王子,公主就这么一起永永远远的爱下去. :)

Maybe...

2010-11-16T13:53:00.000+08:00

Chanced upon this somewhere...

Maybe it takes some distance to realise.
Maybe it takes some time.

Maybe it takes some self-questioning.
Maybe it takes some solitude.

Maybe it takes some moments reminisced.
Maybe it takes some missing.

Maybe it is too little, too late.

I nurse patients but who nurse my feelings?

2010-11-15T00:25:00.000+08:00

A comment made by a colleague of mine today: "I nurse patients but who nurse my feelings?"

Sadly it seems to hit the right spot of our feelings.

While I was at work the other day...

HO:(Came into the ward) Good Morning!
Me: Morning..(looking very sianz all thanks to a terrible headache)
HO: (Taps on my shoulder) Looks like you are going to complain again! Hahaha
Me: Yeah rite.. -.-
I guess I whine too often.. oops!

Letting go

2010-11-12T21:01:00.005+08:00

"When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be. When I let go of what I have, I receive what I need. Have you ever struggled to find work or love, only to find them after you have given up? This is the paradox of letting go. Let go, in order to achieve."
– Mary Morrissey.

And so I thought it holds some truth indeed.

Memories

2010-11-11T03:59:00.006+08:00

As I was arranging the stacks of books and placing them neatly into my cupboard, a pink envelope fell from one of them and landed on my feet. I picked it up, took a closer look at it and smiled. Inside the envelope was a handmade card with the words "Thank you teacher" written on it and a picture of a girl holding a flower in her hands. This card was made by a girl that I used to teach in the children's home during my university days. Joining the community service club in campus is one of the most meaningful thing I have done in my life. Besides teaching, making moon cakes and playing games with them, I have learnt a lot from the kids. They are in fact stronger than me. I missed all of them. I missed how they used to whisper secrets into my ears and hooked our little fingers to promise not to tell anyone. I missed their stories in school and mostly their laughters. Hope they are still doing well now.

It's never too late to start

2010-11-11T00:25:00.001+08:00

Attempted to climb the stairs in my hospital several days ago and ended up panting like a crazy woman when I finally reached the level of my ward. Out of curiousity, my 79 years old patient asked me why am I panting so badly when he saw me. After knowing that the reason behind he said to me: Young girl, your stamina is worse than me and you should really start building it up. It's never too late to start exercising. And so, I realised that what he said was true. It's time for me to start exercising. After all, it's never too late to start a healthy lifestyle isn't it? :)

Courage

2010-11-09T19:16:00.002+08:00

I fear of stepping out of my comfort zone, into the ground of unknown territory where anything may happen. And so I always step away slowly from the edge, move back from the precipice to stay on the terra firma.

People say that if you don't give it a try, you will never know what will happen which may be the catalyst to make what you desire happen. It takes courage which I lacked. I hate regrets. I really do.

p.s. Its a really nice song :)

Have a break, have a laugh

2010-11-07T10:57:00.005+08:00

Adopted this from some other's blog:

1. Men are like ..Laxatives ..... They irritate the shit out of you.

2. Men are like .. Bananas ...... The older they get, the less firm they are.

3. Men are like .. Weather..... Nothing can be done to change them.

4. Men are like .. Blenders .... You need one, but you're not quite sure why.

5. Men are like ..Chocolate Bars .. Sweet, smooth, & they usually head right for your hips.

6. Men are like .. Commercials ... You can't believe a word they say.

7. Men are like .. Department Stores ... Their clothes are always 1/2 off.

8. Men are like .. Government Bonds .... They take soooooooo long to mature.

9. Men are like .. Mascara ... They usually run at the first sign of emotion.

10. Men are like ... Popcorn ... They satisfy you, but only for a little while.

11. Men are like .. Snowstorms ..You never know when they're coming, how many inches you'll get or how long it will last.

12. Men are like ..Lava Lamps ... Fun to look at, but not very bright.

13. Men are like .... Parking Spots .... All the good ones are taken, the rest are handicapped.

HAHAHA

Fairytales

2010-11-05T13:10:00.001+08:00

We all hope for fairytale endings even though we know deep in our heart they may never come true. The beautiful fairytales that we were told once upon a time always ends with a 'happily ever after'. Hence we fantasize our own fairytales and hope that it becomes a reality one day. So do we still pursue this fairytale of ours or take it as a dream that we will eventually wake up from?

Never had a dream come true

2010-11-02T13:56:00.000+08:00

Everybody's got something they had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back or wondering (or wondering)
How it could be now or neither been (or neither been)
All this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

Chorus
I never had a dream come true
Till that day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where love takes me to
A part of me will always be with you

Somewhere in my memory I lost all sense of time
Amd tomorrow can never be
'Cause yesterday is all that fills my mind
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it should be now or neither been (or neither been)
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

Chorus

You'll always be the dream that fills my head
(Yes you will, say you will, you know you will, baby)
You'll always be the one I know (I'll never forget)
There's no use looking back or wondering (or wondering)
Because love is a strange and funny thing
No matter how I try and try
I just can't say goodbye
No no no no

Chorus

A part of me will always be with you...

2010-11-02T00:16:00.001+08:00

Came across this somewhere by chance...

The rain falls gently outside.
The clocks tick ceaselessly inside.
Pitter, tick, patter, tock.
The rhythm drums on.

He sits against the wall with legs stretched out.
She sits against him with her knees drawn up.
Heart beats and silent breaths.
In rhythm, hearts drum on.
He walks out, never looks back.
She stays in, resisting the reach out.
Pitter, tick, patter, tock.
The rhythm drums on.

And hearts out of sync,
still drum on.

2010-11-01T17:16:00.004+08:00

I wish I could fly to somewhere faraway. Or open my eyes and find myself somewhere in a foreign land.

On a sidenote, managed to assemble the piece of furniture I bought from IKEA today. I have always enjoyed the process of assembling things from IKEA myself as well as the sense of achievement when I look at the final product standing right in front of me. One important thing to keep in mind is to eat trucks of food before u start.

The song that I was listening to repeatedly today while doing my stuffs. It's one of the songs that I always enjoyed.

Let's savor the best in life

2010-10-31T00:06:00.003+08:00

I like this feeling of tranquility. Away from the expectations, hopes, worries and insecurities. Take a moment to enjoy the peacefulness of your inner soul.

2010-10-30T02:03:00.003+08:00

This is what I'll look like later today. It's late and I'm far from being sleepy while the clock tick ceaselessly in the room.

Today, yesterday, same thing to me. As long as I haven’t fallen asleep, the day hasn’t ended.

A blessing in disguise

2010-10-24T12:20:00.001+08:00

Yesterday night was one of the worst night I ever had in my life. Started having migraine in the late afternoon which lasted through the entire night. I did not take the migraine seriously initially as I never had the problem of serious migraine that last more than an hour or two. However, this time round I'm wrong. The migraine worsened as hours went by. Tried sleeping by 8pm yesterday but the pain was so great that I could only drift on and off to sleep. Mum offered some panadeine which I refused as I do not want to rely on any form of analgesia. Hence the stubborn me ended up waking up in the middle of the night crying due to the intense pain. Finally managed to drift off to sleep after that as the pain became more tolerable. And so, I ended up staying at home today and sleeping most of the time since the migraine hasn't go away. Sigh.

The rain begins to fall, harder and harder, and I heard it through my closed windows, shielding me from the torrent as I woke up from my sleep. The muffled sound of the rain rendered a sense of serenity. Sitting alone watching the endless falling raindrops, away from the crowd, the incessant chatter was a peaceful moment to enjoy.

So was it a blessing in disguise? :)

2010-10-23T06:10:00.001+08:00

Time files..its already friday today. I still remember how much I looked forward to friday last week. If only I could make time stand still or return to the past, I would very much like to be the shu xian 2 months ago...

Anw this week's leave was not too bad. I had intermittent amounts of fun (which I can't deny) but also sporadic moments of misery and boredom. Managed to catch up with a friend whom I thought I had lost touch with and ex-colleagues. Something valueable that I guessed I have gained this week. :) Managed to finish the tw drama series fated to love you these days when I'm home. Cried alot while watching the drama as usual haha. Maybe I should to switch to what someone suggested, the comedies instead.

Got to spend some time to think of my next step before I'm being asked. Now the question is, icu anot? I have no confidence in myself. I have always chose to stay in my comfort zone in the past be it towards environment or people. I hate to make decisions because I know I'm not capable of making wise choices or maybe I'm afraid of regretting. Some things just can't go back to what it used to be even if you regret.

Was reading the book "embracing hope" yesterday which accumulates the chronicles of blood stem cell transplants in Singapore as recommended by the brother. As I was halfway through the book, I felt ashamed of myself. There are so many people trying their best to stay alive and live their lives to the fullest despite the harsh reality they have to face when they are diagnosed with leukaemia. Here I am whining about my life when I am actually much more fortunate than them. The stories written by the patients themsleves were truly inspiring. They made me respect the cancer patients even more than before. People, remember to cherish those that you love before you regret and never let youself indulge in self-pity.

2010-10-22T06:00:00.000+08:00

Staying in the brother's room most of the time doing my own stuffs reminds me of the hall days. Feeling nostalgic right now. My stay in KE VII was short but definitely a thrilling experience to remember. My first long stay away from home to have a taste of uni life. Catching the spiders that managed to crawl into our room, studying late into the night at the faculty, hoping to catch the last shuttle bus back and not forgetting the exciting cum scary walk along the ulu pathway extending from KE VII to NUH for supper at night with my roommate. Those were the days.

Too much free time triggers your mind to ponder over more things. Is this good or bad?

Sometimes human species can be hard to understand, inlcuding myself. There's so much that can be said and done, yet so little that gets taken to heart. It's not that we can't see the logic in those words/actions, but they just simply have very little impact on how we feel.

2010-10-21T17:33:00.000+08:00

I hate the occasional skeptical part of me. I’ve a strong feeling. That I’ll be back in the same situation, with the same ending. Back to square one. Because everything seems so surreal.

2010-10-21T04:50:00.000+08:00

Finally break away from my jail term and the endless drillings today! Yayness! :D So here I am sitting comfortably in starbucks and enjoying my favourite dark mocha while blogging :) Oh and not forgetting with the constant irritation from beng who is finally doing her homework now in preparation for the start of her teaching career next year. Jiayou Ms Toh! :D

No mood for shopping today. Just wanna slack on the sofa and watch people passing by. Life's good this way isn't it? Anw shall enjoy myself first before going for the fitness challenge later. Good luck to me haha. The last time i did a proper exercise was during PE lessons in jc (if u wouldn't count in the attempts to play squash during my final yr in nus cus the actual motive behind was to make full use of the facilities in nus before I leave since I've paid so much for my tuition fees). :D I'm an auntie I know.

Alrite shall continue with my online news reading now. BYE!

p.s. In case u din realise, happy 2010 2010! :)

2010-10-20T02:45:00.000+08:00

Woke up to the constant naggings of the mother cus the workers are coming to the house soon for renovation. The start of a long dusty cum sneezing day :( Did I mention that I had allergic rhinitis and cannot stop sneezing when there's too much dust around? Fortunately I have been religiously using my nasal spray every morning. If not I'll be dead by now with all the damn drillings and dust around me. The only good news out of the on going renovation is that the brother's room is the only place that is not affected and I can seek shelter in his sty. HAHAHA..This only concludes that sometimes its good that the brother is in school most of the time. :D So I'm actually enjoying myself in the air-con room, watching online dramas and listening to my favourite songs :) A slack housekeeper ain't I? :D

I always enjoyed reading straits times online instead of reading through the the newspapers which makes your hands smell like you have just washed them with BLACK grease. No offense to newspaper readers out there ok? Reading news online is so much easier. You don't have to walk all the way to the newspaper stand to buy the newspaper cus all you need is a functioning com with internet access. :D

I do agree that appearance is insufficient to judge one's substance. I can still remember this professor of mine who taught me entrepreneur marketing in nus. He never fails to wear a short sleeve typical uncle like shirt and carries those kind of NTUC grocery shopping bag on his shoulder when he comes for lectures. He drinks from a plastic mineral water bottle and takes the same bus home just like majority of the students in the campus. If you sees him along the street, he may look just like an ordinary uncle to you. However you will be surprised that he is actually a very smart and successful entrepreneur. I have always enjoyed his lectures cus he never failed to make lessons so interesting esp when the lecture starts in deadly hours like 5/6pm. NUS definitely needs more lecturers like him.

BORED IS THE BEST WORD TO DESCRIBE ME RIGHT NOW. BYE.

2010-10-19T14:00:00.000+08:00

Having the opportunity to rest on monday is a luxury :) No monday blues for me today! :D On the contrary, today was a happy monday:) Went back to the hospital for a nice breakfast cum research meeting with the gals. After which cheryl drove me to the salon where I had soft straightening done on my (mop-like) hair :) Say goodbye to bad hair days! :D

I realised that my brain starts to generate all kinds of eccentric ideas when I'm bored.
Was telling someone yesterday that maybe I'm just too creative HAHAHA..wad say you huh wad say you? :D okie I tink I'm way too indulged in narcissism. That's a bad sign.

Sometimes I wonder is it better to be expressionless instead? Then nobody will ever know how you are feeling and it saves you the trouble to explain why you are feeling this way. Let me tell you why...

One fine day at work...
HO: Hey shu xian why are u always looking so stressed/sad?
Me: Do I? Haha I din realise it.
(On the same day)
Reg: Hey why are u always smiling and looking so happy? I can see it during the rounds.(Laughs)
Me: Do I? Haha I din realise it.

(Later part of the day)
Another HO (who happened to be at both scenes when the previous HO and reg was talking to me): I know why already, maybe you got a condition called bipolar disorder.
Me:..........
So tell me, how should I look like? Maybe a mask will save all the hassle.

2010-10-18T14:40:00.000+08:00

Another day had passed in the blink of an eye. Time seems to pass by so much faster when you are enjoying isn't it? :o

I'm actually quite tempted to run with the teamNUS in the upcoming Standard Chartered Marathon Singapore 2010 in dec. However after some self-reflection I guess I'm better off doing something else than running in a marathon. Self-consciousness is the word. HAHA. I'm, still hoping that I'll survive through this week's fitness challenge which is COMPULSORY for everyone. -.-"

Did I mention about an incident on the bus the other day when I was on my way home from work and happened to overhear a conversation between 2 secondary school students?

Student A: You know (paused for a while), yesterday when I was walking to school, I NOT BECAREFUL and ACCIDENTLY (I did not spell this word wrongly, this was exactly what was pronounced by the student) FALLEN into the drain.

Student B: OMFG! No wonder you got so MUCH cuts on your legs!

I was pretty appalled by the linguistic ability of these 2 SECONDARY school students.(oh well, anw my english standard sucks too haha) :D

Its nice to listen to english oldies late into the night while thinking through things that you have no time to think about in the day....Sometimes that's when the emo feeling sets in...

p.s. I just realised that this entry was really random but who cares? As long as I'm happy :)

2010-10-17T16:06:00.000+08:00

I'm blogging right now cus I can't sleep. :( Insomnia again. Haiz..

Sometimes I really do envy the brother. He's always the mother's all time favourite child. A good boy since young who listens to everything she says unlike me. Oh well, everyone just got their own individual character isn't it. No wonder I have nth much to talk to him. He has become a all time professional mugger now ever since he started med school. Good luck to you.

Just came back from a shopping trip with beng. Its been such a long time since we met. I missed those days hanging out with her after tutorials during jc days and mugging tog for a levels. Glad to hear that she's doing well in NIE and is graduating soon. :) It's pretty interesting to hear stories about her students who never fail to make her blood boil.HAHAHA Maybe that's the interesting part about teaching esp secondary school students. lol

I wanted to do a lot of things this week but seems like I'm not fated to do so. :( Wanted to go on a holiday with beng and only to realise that I need to be a housekeeper this week, wanna have a short one day trip to jb and only to realise that my passport has expired! *Bang my head against the wall* How can such a blur person like me exist in this world??? What else can I do? Maybe I'm just fated to be a free of charge housekeeper this week. Sigh...(Oh and did I mention its actually housekeeper cum part-time maid???) Double SIGH!

I tot off days are supposed to be merry??? :(

2010-10-17T02:00:00.000+08:00

My annual leave is finally here! :D
Time to let down my hair and relax to the max hahaha...no work, no stress nth at all(Except the occassional visits to the hospital for the research project meetings)

On the contrary, there is a renovation going on at my block and the drillings are driving me crazy! ROARS! So here I am listening to my ipod at full blast which obviously dosen't help :( HELLOO ITS A SAT MORNING DON'T YOU GUYS KNOW THAT???
Don't the workers feel tired of having to drill the entire morning and probably needed some break?? At least do give me a break!

Nth much was planned for this long awaited leave of mine. :( Its pretty sad I know. Many people at my workplace are already telling me this :( The mother claimed that there has to be someone at home during this renovation period for my block cus someone will be coming to my house for renovation too. Haiz why do I have to be a housekeeper when I am officially on leave?? That's very PATHETIC. Oh and not forgetting that the reg actually told me this before I go on leave "Imagine how u will feel on the last day of ur leave before u come back, u will feel very sianz!" -.-" yes I know...thanks for the reminder even before I go on leave.

Nevertheless, I will still be going out hahaha...I don't want to be jailed at home for 10freaking days. This will be the last thing I want to do on my mind. Alrite gonna prepare myself now, going out soon! :)

2010-10-15T09:30:00.000+08:00

Can I wish that I see this tonight?

2010-10-15T05:00:00.000+08:00

Its cool to blog using a handphone! :) alrite I know I'm a noob..I've always been a techno idiot anw..nth special :D

anw tonite is finally gonna be my last nite and after which I shall embark on a 10 days journey of eating, sleeping and peeing for as much as I want it to be. :D How great is that!

feeling rather emo recently..maybe its the night shift syndrome? I have always liked to self diagnose myself haha...who knows maybe there really is such a syndrome existing hur hur... enough of the craps..going to sleep now gd nite..yawns...

p.s. A part of me was saying its alrite and let it go while the other part of me couldn't bear to do so....irony...... :(

2010-10-14T04:03:00.000+08:00

My sentiment at work when certain people are just so demanding that it gets on my nerves.. I'm not angry, just feeling pathetic. Anw enough of these craps, I'm one day nearer to my AL! :D

2010-10-13T04:50:00.000+08:00

Though its only my first night, I am already looking forward to FRIDAY....I HATE NIGHT SHIFTS. THE END.

2010-10-12T05:00:00.000+08:00

Finally I got back to blogging again. Suddenly had the impulse to change a new blogskin and start everything all over again.

Work is damn tiring even though I just came back from my rest day. This is the nature of my job and there is nth that can be done to change this fact..sigh...seems like several people around me are already making plans to swtich career haha..maybe its time for a change for me too? I'm still deciding...mom wanted me to join teaching instead haha..its not a bad idea after all..since I love kids so much..I wouldn't mind teaching a class of 40 kiddies even though I guess I'll probably end up being bullied by them. Had an experience before when I was giving tutition to some primary school kids in the past and had a really hard time to get them to listen to me...

Me:Can you all please kindly seat properly, keep quiet and listen to me?
Kiddy A:Cannot teacher, my buttock will feel pain if I sit for too long...(Dots...)
Kiddy B:Can we not have lesson today? We can talk about you!(Flashing me a wide smile)
Me: There's nothing interesting about me to talk about.. -.-"
Kiddy C: We can talk about your husband or children!
Me: I'm not even MARRIED....(Duhhh!) Now can we please continue with our revision??
Everyone (Simultaneously): NO!

Kids nowadays are definitely getting smarter....

On a happier note, my AL aka annual leave is finally coming!! I looked just like a giraffe now after missing my annual leave last mth cus I actually forgot all about it and happily reported to work! Wad a HARDWORKING staff ain't I??? So now I SWORE that I will not miss my AL ever again!

I miss baking but the little amount of energy I'm left with everyday after work keeps me from doing so and rest days are reserved for recuperation haha..excuses I know... :D
Alrite back to my comfy bed now to gear up myself for night shifts later! (How i wish I'll receive a call later after waking up to inform me that night shifts are cancelled!) I'm definitely day dreaming again...Day dreaming has always been my hobby anyway...hurhur..."Good night!"

2010-08-06T15:59:00.000+08:00

It's been a year since I graduated and started my career as a staff nurse. I have learnt that ‎"Being a nurse isn't about grades,it's about being who we are. No book can teach you how to cry with a patient. No class can teach you how to tell a family member has died or are dying. A nurse is not about the pills,the IV's and charting. It's about being able to love people at their weakest moments and being able to make a difference in their lives.

Im glad that I have chosen this path at least up till now. I can't say that I'll definitely stay long in this career but until this point of time, I have not regretted my decision. After a year in geriatrics, I have decided to move on to general surgery for a change. Some people told me its a good decision as exploring into different discipines allows me to have a better idea of what I really like before settling down to specialise. Some say it's always good to learn different things in life while some felt that the longer you stay the more you will find love in the discipline.

This one year in geriatrics, I have learnt to see things in a different persepective, to learn to love the elderlys more and to understand them better. In the past, taking care of elderlys to me merely means feeing them during meals, changing their diapers, turning them 2 hourly and serving the never ending long list of medications. I would not say that I am a good nurse who excels in taking care of the elderlys. I am still learning till this point of time. However, this one year has given me the chance to understand the real reasons behind turning the pts 2 hourly, cutting the food into small pieces and feeding them mouthful by mouthful (sometimes may even take up to half an hour of your time) or pacifying the demented pts who wanted to leave the ward in the middle of the night.

The multi-disciplinary meeting held every week has given me a chance to see how holistic healthcare can be. Through discussions with the different therapists, msw, dietitian, drs and nurses, I have learnt that taking care of an elderly is not just about the medical and nursing aspects. It also comprises rehabilitation, social and financial aspects of the pt and his/her family. I enjoyed working with the geri drs who I would say are really nice.

Just like what a registrar told me before, nursing an elderly is different from nursing an ordinary adult. An elderly requires more of your attention and patience compared to an adult. You will get to love it if you reaches your heart out to them. Its indeed a valuable experience I have gained.

Being in general surgery for almost a week now, I'm still not in the position to comment much about this discipline. GS is very different from geriatrics is all I could say. GS is more direct and only focuses on the problem that the pt is admitted for. Not even to mention about the incredibly high turnover rate. I'm glad that the GS ward that I went to has good teamwork. Nice colleagues who are always there to help and guide me has helped to allay some of my fears in adapting to a totally different discipline.

I miss my days in geriatrics but at the same time I do enjoy learning about the surgical aspects of nursng care. :)

2009-04-23T04:00:00.000+08:00

Its been 3 and a half weeks being in the geriatric ward..I quite enjoy nursing geriatric patients as sometimes they are quite cute..This 3 weeks of posting has allow me to see the holistic nursing care for geriatric patients..From following dr's rounds, to making the changes, referring the patients to medical social worker, physiotherapist, occupational therapist, dietitian and following up with what they wrote, communicating with the family and nursing homes to assessing and ensuring that the patients and their family will be able to know how to take care of the patients and have bought the necessary equipments to take care of them when they are discharged. I am still in the process of learning how to manage the patients and I think there is a lot more to learn besides nursing care but also the paperwork stuffs such as night census, trendcare etc..

Went back to the hospital on Monday to meet up with Jillian as she wanted to meet all of us and our preceptors..After which, my preceptor brought me to visit the geriatric clinic and geriatric rehab centre in the hospital and introduced to me the various activities that are available for geriatric patients who are discharged. I was particularly impressed with the geriatric rehab centre where there is a section which is made such that it looks exactly like a home environment with many gadgets that cater particularly to the elderlys. There are things like a long stick with clipers to allow elderlys to pick up the rubbish from the floor without having to bend down, specially made utensils which help patients who had stroke before and are unable to bend their elbows and fingers to eat. There is one particular gadget which I find it very intersting. It is a long stick with a small square mirror attached to the end of the stick and it was placed in the mini bathroom..My preceptor took the stick and asked me what I think it is for..without using my brain I took the stick and tilt it upside down and put it near my face..I told her that it was a mirror for us to look at our face.. my preceptor told me not to hold it near to my face..then she explained that the mirror is not for me to look at my face but for the elderly patients with diabetes to use as many times these patients did not realise that there may be a cut in their foot until the wound worsens due to their diabetic condition..hence the mirror allows them to check on their feet everyday for any cuts or wounds..-.-" I guss there is still a lot more things that I have to learn in geriatrics haha..

2009-04-07T04:30:00.000+08:00

Finally ended my last day of night shift..was quite stressed during the third night..I am still quite confused with the documentation and I guess I really need to learn the proper way of documenting..another fear of mine is that I am afraid that I will miss out something important such as putting up referral forms, labelling investigations, trace results, following up with discharge summaries and other special instructions etc..I am also quite blur sometimes.. hai..I guess I really need to buck up on many aspects..the more I do the more I feel less confident about myself...

I wonder if I got hearing problem also..yesterday night I called a doctor regarding my patient's condition..instead of hearing the doctor say about the instructions for my patient, I thought she asked me for my ward number and so I told her my ward number..hai..luckily she was quite nice and repeated what she says..I guess the doctor must have thought that I have loose associations...-.-"

Luckily today did not spill any intravenous antibiotics..I am really blur until I did not realise that I have not release the clamp when I was priming the burette in the treatment room..no wonder I was wondering how come the normal sailne did not flow out of the tubing..dots...it was after a while then I realise about the clamp..haiyo...At this speed of mine, no wonder I am so slow when managing my cases..

My preceptor was down with flu le and I got it too..hope she can get well soon..:)

2009-04-06T02:48:00.000+08:00

Finally completed my 2nd day of night shift..felt sooooo tired especially in the middle of the night..like what my preceptor has described me..I'm more like floating in the ward rather than walking..haha..Felt really tired especially during the "sleepy phase" in the middle of the night but after that phase I became hyper and floats around especially during the period from 5am till I finish passing my reports..This morning as I came out of the staff room, I was in a hyper cum floating mood and thus I wasn't walking straightly sooo I bang straight into the huge metal food trolley and choked on the milk tea that I am drinking..so malu sia especially when people start turning around to see what was happening...hai..-.-"..Hope my third night tonight will not be as malu as today..:)

I guess I really need to brush up on many nursing skills..especially drawing out medications using a synringe..During my first night, I was preparing to give an intravenous antibiotic and I am supposed to syringe out the medication after reconstituting it..as I was syringing out the medication from the glass bottle which was supposed to be in 20mls, I did not realised that I had reached the limit of the syringe and I happily continue to pull the end of the syringe until it pop out from the syringe and all the antibiotic medication splashed onto my uniform..hai..felt so embarassed to even look at my preceptor..malu malu.... -.-"

I guess night shifts can be quite intersting as although sometimes night shifts can be peaceful..sometimes it can be quite happening..looking forward to my sleeping day and rest day next week..Got to really catch up on my sleep..if not more winkles are popping out le..hai...

2009-03-31T11:23:00.000+08:00

Went for my first day of T to P today..Overrall, I guess today was quite alrite...Had orientation around the ward today by a ssn and was intorduced to my preceptor after that. My preceptor taught me about the routines in the ward and things like how to charge pts using the computer and stuffs like that. Today was spent mostly in learning about the job scope of a nurse in the ward. After which I went to the journal club with my preceptor in the afternoon to learn about the management of patient with end stage renal failure. I guess today was quite a long day for me as I did not sleep well the night before..prehaps because I am too nervous for today's TtoP..haha..:p

2009-03-30T00:38:00.000+08:00

Ended my emergency posting on friday..Overrall, I think its an interesting and eye opening experience for me.. Quite enjoy working there too :) The staffs there are nice and willing to teach :) Going to the medical ward for my transition to practice in the coming monday..hope everything goes well.. :)

2009-03-15T03:36:00.000+08:00

My last week of school finally ended with photo takings and shopping at the nus bazzar...haha..I will miss my days in school with my friends.. and not forgetting the "oh my tian" gang!:)

Community posting is fun!:) Its fun to travel around the central part of Singapore though its quite tiring.. Getting to see people living in different and sometimes extreme conditions is an eye opener for us too.. I think it feels good and closer to the patients when interacting with them at their home. Really respect the community nurses because though it can be quite tiring to travel around from places to places, their nursing skills standards and passion to care for their patients is never compromised...I guess besides the learing the skills from them, perseverance is something that they have shown us.. Few more days to the end of my communtiy posting before going back to school for OSCES and then the start of emergency posting.

Went for my driving simulation this morning with ping and its was really fun!:D The instructor was funny and I guess he wanted to vomit blood as he went through the simulation with the 2 of us..hahaha...

Alive and Kicking

2009-02-19T13:45:00.000+08:00

Its been a long time since I've last blogged.. Time really files, its already 2009 this year...hai one year older le..This sem's timetable was rather packed with lectures, tutorials and clinicals with long breaks in between..Can't believe i actually exercised more this sem which may be due to my auntie mentality setting in again..since graduating soon, might as well use the facilities as much as possible hahaha...dun waste money ma...haha..

Went to phuket during chinese new year and got myself darker when I came back...I guess the part that I like the most about the short holiday trip is the food..especially the breakfast provided by the hotel as I could eat as much as I could hahaha.. :)

This week is the 2nd week of the mental health posting at IMH. I think IMH is really a nice place with nice environment and it actually has secret receipe! The chocolate banana cake is really a temptation...hai.. I guess IMH posting is quite interesting probably also because the patients there are rather different compared to the patients in general hospitals..Its fun talking to them and I particularly like an ah ma in my ward..she's a cute old lady whom I guess everyone likes to talk to..haha..There's another patient who actually thought that I came back from africa cus she feels that I'm dark.. -.-" Anyway 2 more days to the end of the posting! :)

End of clinical posting

2008-12-22T11:50:00.000+08:00

Yay! Attachment finally ended this morning :) Went to the church after reaching home then came home and slept all the way till 5pm today..:)Finally I can watch little nyonya in peace without having to miss any episodes le..haha..Shall enjoy my remaining holidays to the fullest!

2008-12-21T10:35:00.000+08:00

Since there is still some time, shall take the chance to blog abit..Going to kkh in an hour's time..hope today I will not feel so tired like yesterday night..Slept all the way till 3pm today..felt a little wierd to brush my teeth in the afternoon..-.-" Nevertheless..clinical posting is ending soon! After which will be lots of sleep, eat, play and of course little nyonya! >.<

Pediatrics Posting

2008-12-18T12:10:00.000+08:00

Its been more than a week since the start of my pediatrics posting at KKH. Its rather interesting sometimes being in a pedistric ward. During my first week of posting, there is this pair of twins in ward which really caught people's attention. Being mixed blood babies, they have a caucasian baby doll face consisting of big round eyes with double eye lids, long eye lashes, really pink cheeks and fine brown hair. The elder twin loves to cling around her mummy while the younger twin enjoys playing by herself. One could find the younger twin sitting at any corner of the room be it in front of the fridge or the toilet, playing by herself. Being a popular baby among the staffs in the ward, one would almost always find her around the nurses' station where everyone would be crowding around to play with her sometimes while feeding her.

Its also interesting to find a child crying miserably during events such as taking throat swab or administering medications at one monent and saying goodbye to the nurse at the other moment while still in tears when she left his room after completing her task. No wonder people sometimes says that kids are really innocent haha...

There was a patient's mother whom I really respected. Due to some reasons, it was really not easy to take care of the child. The attention and effort that she puts in to provide the best care in every aspect for her child really touches me.

Pediatrics posting is coming to an end soon..day shift tml follow by 2 nights..I hope I would be able to 'tahan' throughout the nights and not bang into the wall again haha..:)

2008-12-18T12:00:00.000+08:00

Visited the national museum and the pernarakan museum on monday as its my off day this week. Both my friend and I were suprised and of course happy when we realised that the admission fee to both museums are free for nus students (my auntie mentality sets in again haha).. I should say the national museum is very interesting..I like the part particularly where it introduces the famous singapore food in the early days.

There was another gallery which was also quite interesting. One will first be given a gadget with a pair of ear set that serves to provide commentaries along the way as one walks through the gallery. The gallery is designed for one to walk through a timeline. As one reaches each section of the gallery, he can key in numbers (which will be shown on the floor of the gallery) into the gadget and commentaries will be played over the ear set regarding the section of the gallery that he is in. For example, one could listen to the experiences of the different people who had gone through japanese occupation when he steps into the japanese occupation section.

The pernarakan museum was interesting too as the pernarakan culture was quite unique..the museum was small with only 2 stories..I was looking forward to see the display of pernarakan food but it was not seen anywhere :( Stumbled down the staircase in the museum instead..so malu la...I guess it left me a memorable experience in the museum.. -.-"

2008-12-02T11:40:00.000+08:00

Finally my last paper ended today.. Its finally time for some retail therapies and catching up on some sleep before attachment begins!=)

2008-11-09T02:30:00.000+08:00

Kids Are Quick
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TEACHER: Maria, go to the map and find North America .
MARIA: Here it is.
TEACHER: Correct. Now class, who discovered America ?
CLASS: Maria.
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TEACHER: John, why are you doing your math multiplication on the floor?
JOHN: You told me to do it without using tables.
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TEACHER: Glenn, how do you spell 'crocodile?'
GLENN: K-R-O-K-O-D-I-A-L'
TEACHER: No, that's wrong
GLENN: Maybe it is wrong, but you asked me how I spell it.
(I Love this kid)
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TEACHER: Donald, what is the chemical formula for water?
DONALD: H I J K L M N O.
TEACHER: What are you talking about?
DONALD: Yesterday you said it's H to O.
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TEACHER: Winnie, name one important thing we have today that we didn't have ten years ago.
WINNIE: Me!
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TEACHER: Glen, why do you always get so dirty?
GLEN: Well, I'm a lot closer to the ground than you are.
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TEACHER: Millie, give me a sentence starting with ' I. '
MILLIE: I is..
TEACHER: No, Millie..... Always say, 'I am.'
MILLIE: All right... 'I am the ninth letter of the alphabet.'
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TEACHER: George Washington not only chopped down his father's cherry tree, but also admitted it. Now, Louie, do you know why his father didn't punish him?
LOUIS: Because George still had the axe in his hand.
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TEACHER: Now, Simon, tell me frankly, do you say prayers before eating?
SIMON: No sir, I don't have to, my Mom is a good cook.
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TEACHER: Clyde , your composition on 'My Dog' is exactly the same as your brother's. Did you copy his?
CLYDE : No, sir. It's the same dog.
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TEACHER: Harold, what do you call a person who keeps on talking when people are no longer interested?
HAROLD: A teacher
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2008-11-06T14:30:00.000+08:00

Was youtubing on the korean drama "Pure 19" aka Jue Hua today cus I missed out quite a lot due to my elective project..The thing which I like most about korean dramas is that it usually has a fairy tale ending and everyone will be leading a everlasting happy life..=)

The final presentation for my elective project finally ended yesterday hence some of us were thinking of ponning this sat's lecture..I guess the lecturer was smart enough to predict this situation thus he set a rule that whoever pons the sat lect will get a zero mark for the project..haiz...so no choice have to go le...I guess it also good in some way cus I have yet to watch the webcast for one of the lect two weeks ago..haiz..its procrastination again...

2008-10-23T04:14:00.000+08:00

Tired tired...super tired today...aiyoyo...stayed in school till almost 10pm yesterday for the project and woke up at 6am this morning for class today...almost missed the bouna vista station while going to school this morning and I was late for tutorial for 15 mins..fortunately the tutor did not mention anything haha...=)hai dunno wad else to blog aso le..soo i shall go and sleep now! :D

2008-10-19T10:00:00.000+08:00

Managed to finish a show called "Breakfast at Tiffany's" on youtube starred by Audrey Hepburn and George Peppard..I love the song Moon River sang by Audery Hepburn!Its really a nice show to watch:) Audrey Hepburn was a real beauty..It was no wonder her trademark was "elegant beauty"..I totally agree with that:)

2008-10-17T14:24:00.000+08:00

Today's rain really makes me feel so sleepy! Hai what a nice weather to hibenate.. Anw we visited NUH's neonatal nursery and neonatal ICU today! All thanks to Leta who lead us around the hospital today and explained to us the equpments and procedures :) The neonates are soooo cute! They are just so tiny that you dun really dare to touch them haha..Some neonates that we saw today were only born several hours ago! One slept quitely throughout despite many of us surrounding and touching him while another one cried thoughout haha...Its interesting to see them cuddle up and their "froggy" legs.. :D No wonder one will always smile when they sees a baby:D

2008-10-05T07:00:00.000+08:00

I made my own banana split today!! Feels so good to have a big bowl of ice cream on such a hot day! :D Though it doesn't look fantastic, it definitely satisfied my cravings for ice cream! :D Took a pic of my masterpiece! Wahaha...

2008-10-02T14:06:00.000+08:00

Its a holiday today!!! Though its just one day but nevertheless its better than nothing..hahaha..Everything is well and fine except for an incident which really "makes" my day...As I was walking past my neighbour's house when I'm going out today, their toddler son was standing at the gate and he smiled at me.. thinking that it was rather heart warming and cute, I smiled back at him..the next moment he blurted out: bye bye auntie! OMG! and he did not just stopped there..after passing by his house where I reached the stairs, I can still hear him shouting: bye bye auntie!! FAINTZ!! Felt like strangling this little fellow!!! So sad lar!! Dotz... T_T

2008-09-28T08:30:00.000+08:00

Fell in love with another new song again! Hee.. its called 吻下去爱上你 from the show 倩女幽魂:) Woo~~~

2008-09-26T15:12:00.000+08:00

Why must we do case study??? SIAN3 DAO4 BAO4!!!!!!

new song

2008-09-23T14:00:00.000+08:00

Simply fell in love with this song.. 月光下.. Its the theme song for the channel 8 7pm drama which ended today..hai..how I wish I could watch it all over again..hee..:)

Back to blogging...

2008-09-18T14:30:00.000+08:00

Its been quite a long time since I've last blogged. Finally decided to revive my dead blog today with a new blogskin:)

I guess I have to "ren lao" le..felt aches all over my body after playing squash last week.. =x After completing my clinical shadowing, I have decided to change my eating habits and TRY to lead a healthier lifestyle which means less chicken rice, less caffine and definitely more vegetables and exercise! (Praying hard that I will do what I have just said) Like what my preceptor said, I should or rather I MUST change my eating habits and lifestyle before its too late. Shall use my blog to constantly remind myself of what I have said! ^^"

Went to register to learn driving yesterday..luckily they made us bought insurance for this cuz I'm quite worried for the instructor's life and the car..haha..Anw I'm really looking forward to the recess week and to try out the food at Indulgz Bistro! Went to their website to check out the menu and looking at the pics are already making me drool....Though I have decided to lead a healthier lifestyle but once in a while I should give myself a day off and indulge myself in niceee food..:D Anw eating is also a form of exercise isn't it? (Mouth exercise):p

Laughing Baby

2008-09-18T00:17:00.001+08:00

Came across this cute video clip of an interesting laughing baby ethan :)

2008-06-08T12:10:00.000+08:00

Bu zhi bu jue several weeks of clinical posting had passed. I enjoyed working in the ward and the environment in AH. Had been doing basic nursing care and made friends with some of my patients. :) Some of them are quite lonely and rarely had anyone to come and visit them hence they love to share their stories with us. Its nice listening to their life experiences and it helps me to understand them better. Some of the patients are quite independent and understanding and they said that they do not want to call the nurses too often. Some of the patients displayed their motivation to get well and will try to ambulate by themselves whenever they can. Can really see the perseverance from their attitude which is something I should learn from them. Will be going for my OT posting next week before returning back to the ward for the 4 weeks of posting. =)

2008-05-09T02:08:00.000+08:00

Holidays are ending soon....dangz...How I wish we had another week of holidays before clinicals start... Anw accompanied mum to causeway point 2days ago as she went to change a new hp for herself and we had mac breakfast..The new one which was advertised seems really nice..hai regretted so much for not choosing that cuz heard that its very niceee... no wonder mum called me lao auntie cause I've always never dare to try out new things..hai..

2008-05-05T14:22:00.000+08:00

Famous seven princess is definitely one of the best korean drama i've ever watched together with my girl.. Gonna chiong finish it before clinicals starts!! *Gambatte!*

2008-03-29T16:10:00.000+08:00

The caffeine is taking effect and I'm so much far away from sleepiness..Words on the paper seems like hieroglyphics.. I just want to enjoy the stillness of the night till it fades away...Simple happiness...

2008-03-17T12:10:00.000+08:00

Sigh... "My Girl" has officially ended...:( I wonder wad else to look forward to during weekends.. No more lee dong wook and lee da-hae :( Hope more korean dramas will be up! :D

I Wish...

2008-03-03T10:14:00.000+08:00

How I wish I could just spend my life away watching korean dramas and movies all day long...I guess I am starting to day dream AGAIN....

2008-01-27T05:18:00.000+08:00

Bu zhi bu jue its already the end of 2nd week of school :) Started the school term with diarrhea and mc.. What a good start... -.-" Anyway had a fun day yesterday celebrating Liping's 21st Birthday.. =D We went over to the central at clarke quay to eat waraku recommended by kelly :) Its really yummy.. Shall go back to try out their other dishes again one day esp the curry since I can't eat it yesterday :)Walked around the central and saw many nicee stuffs but din buy much haha..then went over to kelly's place for a while before going home.. :) Its only the 2nd week of school and readings are already piling up.. Nevertheless, there shall always be time for tv..haha..^^" Haiz...dun really know what I can blog le..guess I'm really a dull person haha...

2007

2008-01-01T15:05:00.000+08:00

2007 is coming to an end in about an hr's time..This year has indeed been an eventful year filled with ups and downs..I have learnt certain things, gained some and lost some..Hope that 2008 will be an even better year for everyone while the good memroies of 2007 shall not be forgotten. =) Happy New Year to all! =D

Clinical Posting 2

2007-12-21T02:14:00.000+08:00

These 2 weeks of clinical posting is finally coming to an end in 2 days time. Been through a lot of stress and had mixed feelings about what I am going through. Sometimes crying really does help in coping with the feelings. Felt really bad as there are many things that I can't do up to the expectations from my preceptor. I just hope that things will go fine in my remaining 2 days of clinicals.

Clinical Posting

2007-12-15T15:30:00.000+08:00

Had been going for attachments at NUH this week and the next. The staffs there are really nice and closely bonded. There were 8 patients in the ward and I felt a little nervous when carrying out nursing skills as its been some time since i've done any plus the fact that i've not brushed up on those that I've learnt long time ago. Finally met my preceptor on my third day of attachment and got to know a student nurse from nyp who is sharing the same preceptor as me. At least this makes clinicals not so lonely with the nyp nurse around.:) These few days of clincials really tires me out, reaching home only at 10 plus pm most of the time. The ward is really cold and I could feel myself dozing off occassionally when there is nothing to do. Guess I've not only learnt from my preceptor but from the nyp student nurse too. She's been in the ward for more than a mth and there are many things which I need to seek help from her. Felt a little nervous when communicating with the dietitians and doctors probably because I'm still new to the working ennironment. Felt nervous too when some patients asked qns about the medicine they are taking. Guess there's still a lot more stuffs which I need to learn. =)

彩虹

2007-11-05T13:02:00.000+08:00

I've simply fell in love with this song! >_< It's definitely one of the nicest song sang by jay chou!! :D:D

女孩

2007-11-05T12:42:00.000+08:00

一天在车上女孩问男孩：我美丽吗？
男孩：还好。
女孩：。。。女孩又问：如果有一天有别的男生要追求我，你会怎样？
男孩：没怎样。
女孩很生气，她觉得男孩根本都不爱她！
女孩最后问男孩：你会爱我多久？一年，十年，还是永远？
男孩沉默了。他没回答女孩的问题，他只是一直驾着车。
女孩心碎了，她知道男孩不爱她了，男孩也不曾给过自己承诺。这时，男孩把车停在一旁。
男孩对女孩说：你不美，但在我心里你永远都是最美的。如果有男生要追求你，我不会怎样，因为那是你的选择。如果你答应，就证明你不再爱我了，就算我生气也没有用。我不保证会爱你多久，不可以说是一年，也不可以说是十年，更加不能说是永远。我可以给你的答案是：我会爱你直到你不爱我的那天。
女孩哭了，她生气为什么自己不相信男孩。
女孩抱着男孩说：对不起！男孩不给女孩承诺，不是他不爱女孩，而是他怕自己实现不到，让女孩难过。

Yesterday

2007-10-20T06:42:00.000+08:00

Many times we took today for granted and only to realised it until it became yesterday..

Titleless...

2007-10-06T00:05:00.000+08:00

Had been wanting to eat many kinds of food these few days. Dunno why.. Dreamt of myself eating Cha Kway Tiao yesterday night.. ^^" Not a bad dream (though unhealthy) actually cos its been a long time since i've ate that..Shall repressed my memory on the calories of cha kway tiao learnt during the lecture on wed..haha..as for exercise...hmmm..shall KIV it first ba...^^"

The torturous week is finally over.. =D Had gem and psy ca and a mid term paper to do..Guess its now time to replenish my energy and eat those food that I had in mind..esp cha kway tiao..:D

Life

2007-09-01T14:50:00.000+08:00

Went for csc just now and got to know a terrible news from my sec sch friend. A friend of mine in sec sch had passed away after committing suicide. Though I'm not very close to him, we greet each other whenever we happened to pass by one another. We knew each other through our CCAs as the sjab and boys brigade in my sec sch are very close. In my impression, he's someone who is humerous,cheerful and friendly. Felt really shocked as I just happened to see him few weeks ago. He seems as cheerful as before and waved to me.. Little did I know that it will be the last time I see him.. Felt a tinge of sadness after hearing this bad news..hai..Life is so unpredictable and we never know what will happen the next minute..After becoming a nursing student, I got to learnt more abt the fragility of life and understood that being alive is definitely a blessing.. May he rest in peace...

Dreaming

2007-08-26T10:00:00.000+08:00

If only dreaming can make money...

881

2007-08-17T11:17:00.000+08:00

Caught 881 at jurong entertainment centre today with my nursing mates as school ended quite early. The movie is rather funny and touching at the same time..I cried a little in the movie esp at the end.. From the movie, I've learnt sth that is to do what you really want to do in ur life as we may not know when is the last day of our life..Its worth the money to catch this movie =) Anyway other than the 10 of us watching the movie, most of the audiences are actually the elderlys..haha..Had our lunch after the movie before kelly,ping,pei shan and I went to shop at IMM..I guess today seems more like a holiday rather than a schooling day..=)

Anw,caught secret the other day and all I could say is the movie is damn niceee! Jay acted quite well in the movie esp those piano pieces he played.. was really suprised that those pieces were actually played by jay himself..I tot they might have found someone to play in place of him..haha..not forgetting the 2 pretty female leads in the movie too..I guess its needless for me to say how much I enjoy this movie =)

BCLS

2007-08-09T14:50:00.000+08:00

Went for my BCLS (Basic Cardiac Life Support) course in nuh yesterday which was kinda interesting. =) I've got to learnt several methods of resuscitation such as one man cpr, 2 men cpr, cpr for infants and foreign body airway obstruction for both conscious and unconscious. The dummys they used to train us is amazing. It can monitor a lot of things and of course one of which i dislike the most is the part where it actually produce a crack sound if u happen to fracture the ribs each time..cos I've managed to fracture several ribs..Had a short training session before going for the theory and practical test after lunch. Attempted twice or more before they finally let me passed haha..Wonder why I just can't carry out the ventilations well and was asked to show 12 times for my rescue breathing..=p As for the infants part, I guess I was too rough le cos I smacked the infant's head against the edge of the table -.- Felt so embarrassed when the instructor told me that the infant must be in pain right now..^^" As for the 2 man cpr, I was day dreaming and was staring into space when I'm supposed to give the 2 ventilations, making my poor partner evon having to do 30 compressions all over again..felt so bad abt it..=x Overall, I sort of enjoyed myself during the course as not only I get to learn new stuff, the instructors there are funny and friendly too. =)

Definition of my name

2007-08-09T13:21:00.000+08:00

Oei Shu Xian --

[adjective]:

Tastes like fried chicken

'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Lalala

2007-07-06T04:50:00.001+08:00

Its been some time since I last blogged. Many things happened lately and I guess I shall not blog about it.. This summer has been a tortureous one cos I'm pratically sweating like mad everyday even during the days when I'm staying at home..=x

Mum's not feeling well again..hope she will get better..Guess I will be occupied with some stuff now..On the other hand, glad that grandma is finally discharged! Its been a tough period of time for everyone in the family..

Btw I came across this song called fei ni mo shu sang by Tank which I love it sooo much! haha ..guess I'm super retarded in realising niceee songs! Shall put this as the song for my blog though it may not seem to suit my blogskin haha...:)

Typical day

2007-06-21T05:00:00.000+08:00

Hai..I'm basically rotting at home today..So I shall blog about what I did yesterday..haha..Went to visit grandma in the hospital in the morning..Saw how the nurses work and all I could say is that they are really very efficient. Some could even anticipate what the patients want. From them, I've learnt that understanding ur patients' needs is another aspect of being a good nurse. :) Went to library after that. Its been a long time since I've stepped into the library and I enjoyed the feeling of reading in the library while listening to some music. And the happiest part of the day was th at I finally bought the necklace which I had been eyeing for a long time ago. Kept wondering whether I should buy it even though it wasn't very expensive..guess this is the habit of a typical auntie haha.. Okay shall stop here now since I've got nothing else to blog.. :)

Mission accomplished

2007-06-15T17:20:00.000+08:00

Yay! I've finally finished my mission of tidying up my room :) happy happy..=D Never in my life had I thrown away so many stuffs..Feels great to clear away the unwanted rubbish and seeing a neater room in front of me hehe..

Oh ya and not forget to mention that my trip to the gym had been a wasted one haiz..Din managed to go to the gym in the end as firstly, the gym was quite crowded by the time my friend and I reached there. Secondly, most ppl in the gym seemed like those professionals and most of them were the super muscular type..seeing this my friend and I did not dare to enter the gym esp since both of us were first timers there =( Hence we ended up running at the stadium nearby with the little kids (cos they seems to be there for some sort of training) -.-" Nevertheless, I enjoyed myself and it feels good to sweat..:) Had a big bowl of ice kachang after my run.. Guess I din really burn any fats in the end haha..^^"

New Blogskin :)

2007-06-15T05:30:00.000+08:00

Yay! Finally changed my blogskin! :) Had been thinking of changing it long time ago cos the previous one seems a bit pessimistic.. Chose this blogskin in particular as I've always hope to visit london one day..:) Hope my dream will come true haha =)Okay enough of my new blogskin..shall go prepare my stuff and hit the gym! =D

2007-06-13T09:40:00.000+08:00

Finally got the time to settle down and do some blogging now =)Had been going out for job hunting these few days..Its the frst time in my life that I have visited sooo many places within one day from north south east to west of Singapore...Seeing my money depleting away from my ez-link card makes me wonder how much I've spent on my transport =x Nevertheless, I sort of enjoy myself cos I went shopping intermittently while hunting for jobs..haha.. =D Oh and not forget the wonderful family potluck gathering..Can't imagine how much weight I must have gained for eating sooo much..=p Shall hit the gym on thur with my friend hehe..Guess the last time I went to the gym was probably 3 years ago.. Hope I dun spoilt the equipments there..=p Went to AMK hub today and it was my first time there..The place was sort of big and cold as I was shivering at times. Guess I was more impressed by the NTUC X-tra at the basement which was really HUGE...probably only aunties like me will prefer to visit such places rather than the boutiques..hehe Saw a pretty young lady on my way to the AMK hub..She's got eyes comparable to sunshine and a wonderful figure which makes ppl hard to take their eyes off her..there were others who too, noticed her breatiful features and kept looking in her direction.. Wad a random post indeed..

2007-06-05T14:44:00.000+08:00

Well guess I'm finally back blogging after the long hiatus..:) The month of may has been a long and meaningful period for me. The 3 weeks of clinical brought me to a greater insight on the importance of kinship and the powerful effects this little word may have on people especially lonely elders. The residents whom I came across and took care of have shown me this. On the whole, I enjoyed my clinical (excluding the part on CCER hehe XD)cos I have never imagine how it is like to work in a nursing home.. :)

After the clinical comes my holidays! It feels great to have time in ur hands :) Visited grandma in the hospital and did some shopping. Though GSS is finally here, the excitement of retail therapy dosen't seems to kick in. Guess probably because I dun really have things in mind at least till now.. Enjoyed chatting with one of my bestie along the Cavenagh Bridge before we took a long walk to the esplanade.:) It feels great to slow down the pace in life and take a look at the things around you.:) Gotta look for a job soon but as for now I shall bask in the happiness of my cumming up schedule:) Guess I shall stop here for now..=)

2007-05-05T03:06:00.000+08:00

EXAMS ARE OVER!!!

Well guess i'm a little slow in my blogging cos the exams has actually ended on wednesday haha..Shall give a post-exam review.. =)

Went to ECP with kelly and ping right after the exam on wed..Really had a wonderful time there =D Shouting out to the sea, picking up seashells, walking along the beach bare-footed and splashing each other with water was FUN! All of us ended up wet and worst of all we did not bring along any spare clothes to change..so we ended up like 3 salted fishes walking around the beach..haha..Nevertheless its was really enjoyable =) Walking to the jetty and chatting along the way was another relaxing part of our trip..It feels good to slow down our pace in life and notice the nature around us..The salty sea breeze and sights of couples or family fishing together is heart-warming =)Took lots of photo with mostly ping and I being the models and kelly the photographer! haha..And not to forget dear ping who keep showing off her slippers cos kelly and I wore covered shoes..muahaha.. Had a lot of great food too! Satays, bak ku teh, cocunut juicies in the afternoon and sambal stringray, chilli sotong and sugercane juicies in the evening makes me feel so wonderful to live on earth! muahaha...XD Though its quite tough to find our way there as we somehow got lost on the way its really an enjoyable outing I had! =)

Went to SGH yesterday to visit grandma and spent almost the entire day there. Chatting and feeding grandma makes me feel much more closer to her now..I loved this feeling =) Though things dosen't seem to go too well for grandma now...I really really hope tat she'll pull thru and get well soon...Went vivo with mum at night..its been so long since I went shopping with mum..=)

3 days left before I set my foot for clinicals.. Shall spendmy precious 3 days wisely!! hehehe...

2007-04-29T09:17:00.001+08:00

guess i've lost the motivation to study after the physio paper..=x went out with ping and kelly on thur after the physio paper..felt really sleepy on my way home that I dozed off on the bus and missed my stop..=x After reaching home, I napped for long 5 hrs!!!! *faintz* hai... guess I should really bang myself against the wall le... =x hope I can perserve till the end... =x

2007-04-19T20:12:00.000+08:00

oh no...my hair is falling like raindrops in a thunderstorm.. =x Guess my fallen hairs are sufficient to make myself a wig now..=x

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